The palm prints

We were lying naked in this big, dimly lit bedroom. No window was spotted around, just an extra king-size bed and some non-descript wall paintings. The room was surrounded by wooden wall and floor that felt warm and cozy. He told me he wanted to show me something. He sat on the floor in the lotus position and asked me to [...]

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Screwing up my courage

After weeks of self-indoctrination with words of encouragement, I finally mustered up my courage and started a new initiative (at least it’s ”new” for me) yesterday.
I have planned to start something that I have never done before. I have no experience as event organizer but this work did not particularly fall into such category. As usual I was always haunted [...]

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The morning bliss

I open my eyes slowly. The first light of the day peeps into the room from the dark-blue long curtain besides the bed. Your arms wrap tightly around me. You breath gently on to my ear, whispering warmth and affection while filling my senses with the joy that only love can bring.

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Looking from the other side

I seem to always fill my life with anxiety. I spend most of my time worrying about things that barely happened in the real life.
Early in 2007 I went to a quiet place in northern Thailand where I learned to listen to myself.  These past few months, I became more and more anxious as I was aware that [...]

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The joyride

After more than half a month of anticipation, we finally arrived at the showroom  yesterday (18/01) to pick up the new car.  The four-wheel drive stood elegantly inside the room; its beige skin glowed without any slight blemish. We opened the doors and a heavy smell of leather broke through the crowd.
It is his new car after 12 years driving the same nostalgic-laden Proton sedan.  

We [...]

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The Beginning

   This is only the beginning.
I woke up one day in November 2007 with a soft whisper of this mantra. And why, another year was just about to go and a new one was coming in. The only difference this time is that I’d just got my appendix removed. I felt an eerie feeling of familiarity that someone whom I knew very well was gently prodding [...]

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